A lot of things that seem important to others just do not seem that important to me. Do you have any ideas why?

There is a difference between you and others who have not lived through transplantation or between you now compared to you before you lived through these experiences. It is not just that you have seen first hand the fragility of the human condition, but that the illusion of worldly immortality in which we find comfort in has been eroded. The difference is not in the belief that you are more vulnerable to death than another, or than you once was. Any of us could die tomorrow. The difference is that this reality has been forced into your awareness. You can no longer ignore it the way many do. And you can no longer find comfort in this illusion; its falsity is too transparent to you. You can no longer live your life as if you had all of the time in the world.

This awakening can be comforting or disquieting. You may find that your new perspective offers you a comforting sense of appreciation for life. That you are freed from striving to protect the future and freer to enjoy the moment of today. You may find that it is not as important to keep your hair perfectly coiffured, or your waistline perfectly proportioned, that (given that you only have so much time on this earth) these things are not worth the effort or energy. There are other, more important things to enjoy.

But changes can take you by surprise. You can find yourself thinking differently about life, but unsure why. Changes in your values, priorities, and the importance you attach to worldly pursuits can occur without your planning. The adjustment may be comfortable for you. Or you may find that you are uneasy with an unfamiliar approach to life. You may feel dissatisfied with previously enjoyable activities or acquaintances. If this occurs, this may be an indication of a need for self-reflection or discussion with others.

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